I WILL NOT DO LIKE MY MOM and blog hop Thursday

I hate to be like my mom. OR I MISS TO LEARN MORE FROM HER.

My mom with Lebau this picture took after my dad die 3 months. (she still sad and start to sick)

I'm Thai, today is mother's day.  From last year I don't have mother to stay close to me anymore, she passed away on Dec 13,2008.
My mom name BoonHome, I heard from grandma, my mom born while the village have festival so grandma give name Boonhome,
Boon mean good, virtue.
Home not mean house, it is Laos word  mean come together, join, connecting, this is how come my mom name.
My mom married with my dad while she was 14 years old very young, she have primary school "pathum 4", that time you can get job to be teacher if you study more 2 years, my mom family was poor so she can't study and must work. She was number 9 from 10 kids. (my grandma, granddad have 10 kids!!!)
My mom work in farm with her parents until she married with my dad , as my dad 22 years old when he got married, my parents have 8 years different from each other.(it's great)

My mom have 6 kids and I'm number 5, so I alway feel she not love me because she seem to not have time for me. while I was child I alway feel my mom not nice with my dad alway upset or other and never agree with my dad in anything, and also my dad alway follow what my mom said and what my mom want he do like it normal , in my eyes I alway tell to myself "I WILL NOT DO LIKE MY MOM" (easy to upset and need attention).
if you read some post that I said my dad he work abroad that over 35 years ago he have quite high salary (about $850/m) my dad work and my mom spend.
I often saw my mom's sister or brother borrow money from my mom and never give it back. and this also "I WILL NOT DO LIKE MY MOM" (give money to brother, sister seem in Thailand it normal to give)
I often saw my mom complete to my dad about smoke or drink and "I WILL NOT DO LIKE MY MOM" (let husband do what he want)
I often saw my mom never said NO when some one or some relative asking help include money, she alway helping even sometime it make her in trouble. "I WILL NOT DO LIKE MY MOM" (never said No)
I often saw my mom drink before dinner and some time drank at home (she never go out to drink with friends) "I WILL NOT DO LIKE MY MOM"

You know, I hate to be like my mom, and I promise myself from I was child "I WILL NOT DO LIKE MY MOM" seem only a thing I not same as my mom is drink and drank all I said "I WILL NOT DO LIKE MY MOM"  is I did and do and still doing ,
now I understand why my mom did that , why my mom upset to my dad, why my mom complain to my dad when he smoke, why my mom helping her sisters brother and give money to relative when they ask help and now I  know it not easy to say "NO"

My mom was great mom, she got many certificate from school , village , community that said she good persons, helping people and kindness.

Today I didn't have her to say I love her but I know she alway look at me and alway next to me. because  "I LIKE MY MOM"


" MOM Thank you for all you have done to me and I will keeping be good person as you wish and I AM NAN YOUR DAUGHTER ALWAY I PROUD  TO BE YOUR DAUGHTER "


PS. This post for you "MOM".





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